Pages 43-54
- Check For STD’s
- No Don’t Write It
- Do I Believe That? Yes, Why?
- Forgiveness Love
- Get Prepared
- Memoirs
- I Love Them – I Love You
- Angels or Deamons?
- Saved By Grace
- Side Note
- Coincidence Not
- Chocolate Milk.
Pages 43-54
Check For STD’s
I had a friend over a few days earlier that I hang out with and she brought up her annual womanly testing. And asked If I had ever been tested. I said I am sure it would show up In my bloodwork from the VA.
She asked I wanted to see hers and made a point of it. At this point I am thinking, yeah let me see it. But she never produced it.
Book Name Suicide Note
I healed MySelf.
No, I am not suicidal I was making a point that if I did have an STD a slow suicide then I can heal myself. I also have a ** Important Later Jim Dangel says this word for word.
No Don’t Write it
(I may be seeing this for the first time) I was – I don’t know how old I was when I was molested.
HMMM? Weird statement But it must have been early in my precious life that I have blocked it.
Don) in my head write it down
Me) No Don’t write It.
Am I fighting my personal battle here? Self vs. Self
Do I Believe That?
Page 45 & 46
Do I Believe That? Yes. What do you believe?
This was the question put to me.
WOW –(My feeling of revelation)
This book is becoming – the story of my learnings – my teachings that – Knowing is Knowing – IS IS
Jim says no. (I have no clue why I wrote that)
Music playing on Jim’s boat “Greatest Love Ever Seen. continued page 46
Notes: Made some coffee the next day April 1st, teared up to almost uncontrollable whimpering after reading the music choice. Not because of the lyrics because of the Message. Jim rarely plays that type of music he is more Metallica kind of guy.
Love Forgiveness
Just as I started Writing those lyrics Then silence until.
My Dangels let me hear what was needed, then silence so I could write.
Why not, Thinking of Rene’ ______. (my pen stayed on the paper I could not or would not lift it. Is that her signature?)
7:48 Pm. How would that make her feel if it were real.
All things are possible
(I don’t know what I wrote this for)
Pages 47 & 48
Get Prepared
Get Prepared
Please throw me off the back of the boat
Shit.
My lesson, not yours.
This must have meant something to me.
WELL, I JUST LOOKED AHEAD TO MY NEXT PAGES. YEAH, IT MEANT SOMETHING Get prepared for your next page’s wowsers.
Memoirs
Jim just came by and in his Dangel words. (What are you writing your memoirs?)
__________________________
Nicole = Rene’
Same person – Different Face
Don – Saint
They are all crazy maybe I am just crazy. I imagine all of this.
They keep popping up when they are needed.
I love them – I love you.
This is where I am beginning to see that all the people in my life are all the same people, the same personalities. The same words and the same appearances in many different forms. What does this mean to me? We are all One living the reality of our dreams over and over. Are they crazy or am I? That fact that all are here teaching me helping me to realize the un-realizable Truth.
It seems that I start repeating or re-examining a lot of things
Pages 49 & 50
I Love them I Love You.
Showing me my transgressions – and or teaching me –
NOTHING REALLY MATTERS
Guess since Don & my other Angel Jim have come back implemented the idea of getting my will together – why would they do that?
Are we surrounded by demmons or is it just programming
Are my Angels Demons: are my Demons Angels
(This is interesting I write my own side note while I write the page. Not the next day)
I am supposed to write I AM sick.
But I write I AM (any emotion) Happy, healthy, loving, angry, bitter, carefree, greedy, selfish, powerful, successful. You fill in the blank as for me
I AM Blessed
(please read into that as pondering your First impression of yourself
I was being distracted by dangle Jim just as I was writing.
Pages 51 & 52
Saved By Grace
But the fact is we are all sinners Saved By Grace.
We are saved from Birth We are One.
After my distraction to write that I am back to the fact that we who strive for Knowledge Receives it.
(This is not to say that what we receive is what may think we were striving for at all.)
Side Note
Dangels Since Demons and Angles are our own Self
We are our own demons and Angels
Jim came by and pretty much quoted what I was writing just as Don did earlier.
It is uncanny how they would know exactly what I was writing when I am at my desk and they outside?
Both pop into my life when I need them both to look after me.
AM I TRIPPIN?
Coincidence?
Pages 53 & 54
Coincidence NOT!
Now I know how these books are written not by drugs or intellect but by God.
Putting the right circumstances together to create an image that we then decide if it is real or not with
Our attitude crossed out
Our faith
Our conviction.
Chocolate Milk
Drinking chocolate milk that Dangel Don brought me.
Went into a (Lack for a better word) vision or knowing
That all things all people all animals need Love
All are my teachers.
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