I am truly blessed. I am not worthy in my own mind. Thank You, God, that you know me better than I. And that you have shown me I am. I Am Humbled.

I have been seeking understanding and knowledge fervently for the last 13 years although the road down this path started over 30 years ago.

At age 28 I found Jesus,

I clearly remember driving down the road and being bitch slapped across the back of my head and HEARING in an audible voice and feeling the slap, “Go To Church”

I went home to my wife and told her we should go to church. Her words were “I go to the church of holy St. Mattress” That is funny but was not at the moment.

I do not know what kind of church it was, it was closest to my home. I walked up and was greeted by loving people.

I was asked if I wanted to sit up front and I was in no way going to do that. I said I will sit close to the exit. I had to have an exit plan.

All I clearly remember of that day over 30 years ago was seeing these people praising, singing, I don’t recall if there were snakes involved or not. But I clearly remember leaving, going to my car. Sitting behind the wheel and asking.

God why he would tell me to go to this crazy church? As I whaled tears, I was not just crying I was the child that could not stop no matter how much comfort you give them. I was emotionally drained. This is not a church for me. Why? Am I Here!